October 30, 2018
4 months, 19 days
It is
about an inch long, and a color somewhere between dark blonde and light brown
with a hint of auburn. The first time I saw it I thought it looked like peach
fuzz. I am sporting a peach fuzz colored reverse mohawk hair trend. I am not
sure if that was the look I thought I would have.
I had been told many times
that when your hair grows back after surgery, it often is a different color,
usually white (no pigment) or grey (the current direction of things). But I did
not expect my hair to grow back in a totally different color, the color of
peach fuzz. I don't have glasses or outfits to match this new hair color. In
the past, when I would try on a new outfit or new pair of glasses and someone
would say "that matches your hair", then you knew it was the right
one.
Even though I have hair growing back, every time I see myself in the mirror, all I see is a scar. A large 6-inch scar down the back of my head that parts the inch-long peach fuzz. My hair is not growing over the scar, but rather parting like the Red Sea on both sides of it.
I am still not used to the sight. I hide the scar by putting a scarf on or by combing hair from the sides across the back to cover. I can also create an awesome comb-over look that hides the scar completely.
I have noticed a change about myself that is more than just the peach-colored hair, which can easily be modified. I have a desire to be something different. I often ask myself, what do I want to do for this world?
What do I want to be remembered for? For being a mother? Teacher? Humanitarian?
Encourager?
You would think by the time you reach your mid-fifties, you would know what you want to be. But then, life throws you a curve ball and you are not so sure anymore that you know exactly what to do to hit it out of the park. Things become harder than expected.
My post-surgery take on life is simple. Everyone has heard the cliches. But you do not start to understand them until the curve ball passes.
· Live every day like there is no tomorrow.
· Hug your loved ones.
·Tell your children you love them every chance you get.
· Don’t take anything for granted.
· Be who you want to be, whatever that is
So for now, this southern girl will embrace the peach-fuzz colored reverse mohawk.
And will definitely live life, hug everyone, love all children even my own, take nothing for granted and just be me.
Cheers! Peacefully,
Linda
